A little lost

Well Helloooo There =D

Lately I've been feeling kind of lost. i have this constant feeling that what i do isn't important. i wake up in the morning and want to just go back to sleep, so i try to think "what do i need to do today?" every night there seams to be something i plan to do the next day, but i can never remember it in the morning.

well i realized today what i was missing, why i feel so unimportant.
I've been spending my summer inside and on the computer. i need to get out and be in nature. but every time i realize that, i also realize that it is amazingly hot outside... too much for this lazy, detached me to withstand.

it made sense to be like that during the school year. 8 hours of paying attention to various subjects while still trying to be social with the people around you is very tiring. that's why i couldn't wait for the summer. for just simply being and enjoying nature. but that isn't what happened.

so now I'm going to try to fix it. quickly! before i have to go back to that horrid prison!
it'll be my senior year. ill be doing things differently from then on. ill have to be serious and independent....
so I'm losing time for just simply being....

Ill need a little help. I'm still quite dependent on my loved ones. But ill try my best.

Ill have to, if i have any hope of staying on my path.
I cant let myself get lost, its time to grow up and stop being this detached little me.